Thursday, March 4, 2010

Past and Present

I just spent a couple days pouring over an older blog Patrick wrote. It began and ended before we ever met each other, and it showed me so much about where he came from, what he felt, the things that made him the man he is today. The man that I love so much my heart can barely hold it.

But reading his words also reminded me of how much I wrote in the past. The blog before this one, that was so evilly torn from my hands and lost to cyberspace, received a post (or more) a day. Not all of them meaningful and deep, but every now and then I hit on something special. What would he see in me if he could read those things that crossed my mind. Would he still love me? Would he see the steps I took to today? The choices I made, both bad and good (mainly bad). But those choices that I would never change, because I wouldn't be me without them.

Writing is a wonderful tool. If the internet and technology have done nothing else, they have made us prolific. Everyone can spill their souls to whomever they wish, the entire world. And you will have a legacy. Maybe not much of one, maybe they barely remember a sentence you wrote, misquote it, and don't even remember your name. But its still there. You became a part of their life experience, and in so doing, changed them in some way.

Hopefully, just by reading what he wrote 4, 5 years ago, it has changed me that perhaps I will give more attention to the blog I have now, and not yearn and pine for the works I lost.

Because somewhere, someone remembers those old posts, and what they meant to me.

Peace out, homies.

8 comments:

Johnny said...

Congratulations. This blog is very beautiful.

Lenina Crowne said...

Thank you for the compliment. :)

Siri----Iris said...

Loved your blog!

Lenina Crowne said...

You guys are going to give me the big head. Throw me some criticism too! I'm glad you're enjoying though.

vladyslav said...

most horribad (<--new word in the dictiorany soon?) blog ever!!!
do not have head same size as the Red Queen from 'Alice in Wonderland'


ah, i am not Chris Rock nor George Carlin. not only my writing needs improvement but my humor does as well.

what you said is true. we all might misquote or forget each others names, but there is an impact we have on each other, it may be microscopic even, there is the whole "butterfly effect" theory.

for me personally it was as simple as realizing that of all the book i read i have been putting off "The Brave New World" for years. it may be because i heard some many things how it is similar to "1984" and me being interested in other things at the time. (oops, i am derailing a little bit) basically, its the next book i will be reading after i finish the one i am currently reading.


have a nice day, enjoy your life everyday, and never stop learning.

Lenina Crowne said...

I most certainly would read "A Brave New World". Huxley's view of humanity is what allowed him to write this book. Its one of my favorites.
One of the main things worth learning, is the ways of people.

June said...

"Writing is a wonderful tool. If the internet ............ in some way" One of the best quotes in the blog world.Very nice

Lenina Crowne said...

Thank you, June. I get a lot out of this blog. And the interaction with other people is one of the most pleasing things.